Lucie vs. Lucie

I feel like I saw a movie like 26 dresses once... about all these bridesmaid dresses the girl wears... we'll my day began with 13 pairs of pants... and NONE that I could wear... 13 pairs of pants that I wore to work all last year do not fit me... not even my fat jeans...

You're wondering if I have been naked for the last 3 months? How did I not know my pants... all of my pants didn't fit me... well here's why it's called Lucie vs. Lucie... I run a summer camp and instead of taking advantage of the fact that sports occur each period I wore mens basketball mesh shorts all summer to work and ignored that on the weekends I wore loose dresses instead of anything with a zipper... denial is sooooo powerful! I ignored it! I didn't do something about it... I ignored it! and when I maned up to the fact that I gained way too much weight.... I ordered the 5-5-5 deal at Dominos and went to town... ugh

so after an hour of finding something to wear... I settle in the some West Wing before work...take the train to work... really spend the morning studying the WW website... So determined to beat myself this time... and then someone brings out the gaucamole and chips.... Bastards with a sneak attack! I hate them all!

I know eat my grilled chicken with lettuce and tomato silently cursing the girl in front of me with the overstuffed turkey sandwich, wise chips and fruit punch and yet she will never gain a pound... and somehow instead of feeling triumphant that I made a good choice I still feel like I lost... hmmm? Perhaps I need to accompany diet with a shrink and not so much excersize....